I am thinking of love all these days. Someone asked me why I had so many feelings about love recently, and wether I were falling in love with somebody afer he read my articles. I just smiled to him and keep silence.
What is my love, it seems that I have had it, but sometimes I feel it far away from me. Having experienced one time, i feel so tired. Maybe I have lost myself. I was in bad mood for some time, and everything becomes better when he appears. He gave me a lot of support and help, and I feel very happy when I am with him. I love him just like one saying: I love you not because of who you are , but who I am when I am with you. Frankly, I really know who I am when I am with him. Everything has beed going on well in the past days.
However, I am a ittle worry about the future between him and me right now. I am so afraid that one day he will leave me, and I don’t know how to do. Someone told me that I have been deeply fallen in love with him, and she is right. I become so care about everything about him. I try to remind myself that I cannot lose myself many times, but failed. My friend told me that I must relax, and let everything goes on their own way. I should follow this advice.
Sometimes I think what will happen if I fail again: I will disappear, and nobody will find me; I will go for suiside, and so one. At last, I always think of my parents, who will be very sad when I leave them silently and suddently, and I cannot do so.
My feelings are so complicated now, and I don’t know what I have written down. I just want to speak out something that has been made me so uncomfortale, and I am much better now.
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